Today marks another loss of one the great pop culture icons of the 80’s. As a child growing up in that period Carrie Fisher will always be Princess Leia to me and the metal bikini clad figure from Return of the Jedi definitely occupied the prepubescent minds of many a boy of my generation. The damsel in distress who could kick butt when she needed to. One of the few iconic female heroes of that generation and as I grew up and the internet and gossip became available to us all I saw a different side of Carrie Fisher from the Princess Leia clad in white from Star Wars.
“I shot through my twenties like a luminous thread through a dark needle, blazing toward my destination: nowhere”
We learned about her alcoholism, drug abuse and mental issues and we all saw the fall of Hollywood royalty. For many of us of the X Generation her fall from grace mirrored our own as we all lost a bit of the childhood hope and wonder that she had inspired in us and had the dark edges of the world creep in around us. The X Generation that had fantasized in the 80s were just as lost as Carrie Fisher was during that time. Looking for answers in a collective mind that mirrored her own battles with bipolar disorder.
“Because I grew up in a public family, I never really had a private life. And so if those issues are going to be public, I would rather them to be public the way I’ve experienced them rather than someone else assuming things about me. It’s freeing to do it. Shame is not something I aspire to.”
It was a wonderful sight for me to see her return to film as I saw her costar in ‘When Harry Met Sally’ one of my favorite rom-com films from that era. She brought the same haughtiness and sarcasm hiding deeper emotional notes to the role of Marie. It was a jaded view of the world from all of our past experience, but still held a view of hope and happiness deep inside with those we could share it with.
She had a flare for sarcasm and comedy in her writing and really showed that it was possible to conquer your inner demons and finally ‘grow up’ without changing. To take responsibilities for our childish behavior without ever leaving that child behind. Carrie Fisher showed us that we are all flawed individuals in many ways and can try coping with it through alcohol and drugs, but the only real answer was to recognize who we were and accepting it flaws and all.
As she faded from the spotlight it was great to see her have a chance to return to the role that made her such an icon in pop culture history. Even though her scenes were brief in Star Wars Episode VII it was still glorious to see her as Princess Leia again. She didn’t have the same physical beauty as she did in her youth but the strength of character was still there. Seeing her back in the public eye she showed off her old zaniness and wit and love of life, troubles and all.
As 2016 finally draws to a close, I realize that we’ve lost so many that influenced the childhood and teenage years of my generation. From the music of David Bowie, Prince and George Michael to film stars such as Alan Rickman and now Carrie Fisher. These fantastic characters who helped lead us through rough patches with their various talents, the world does indeed seem a little darker as this year draws to a close.
Still I took the time to rewatch old movies and listen to songs from my past again reliving old memories and stirring up old feelings that are much more positive than before so the dead still live and stir up long dead emotions back to life.
“I heard someone say once that many of us only seem able to find heaven by backing away from hell. And while the place that I’ve arrived at in my life may not precisely be everyone’s idea of heavenly, I could swear sometimes — I hear angels sing.”
Thanks for all of the great memories~
Originally posted 2016-12-27 18:52:26.