He replied, “Whether he is a sinner or not, I don’t know. One thing I do know. I was blind but now I see!”
How wonderful it must have been for the blind man to see, but what if the gift of vision were taken away.
There was a time years ago I fell in love, again. It was the second time that love struck me like that. It was a bolt of lightning that appeared without warning and gave some purpose to my life. It was a feeling that I had long given up on.
I had been in love before, once when I was much younger. She was the person that I could plan my whole life around. What we would do together, places to go, things to experience, the simple idea that greatness lay before us. Unfortunately, as much young romances go reality butted in ruining things. I didn’t realize what I lost as I moved on with my life and entered other relationships.
In many of those relationships I thought I was in love again, I really wanted to be without understanding how hard it is to find that really “special” person to be with. Eventually, I stopped caring for it thinking that I would never be able to rekindle that feeling. The idea of finding someone where the idea of future together was even better than being with them now.
Over a decade later, I found love again. Again it hit like lightning when I wasn’t looking. From the first moment I saw her I knew something was special. It was different this time, the first time it was mutual, we just both had a feeling and on our first date both of us just knew that we should be together. This time around I just had a feeling and the more time I spent with her that feeling grew and grew. She thought I was crazy, and I admit that I was. However one night while drinking coffee after a long night of drinking we had our moment. From that point on that feeling became a knowing not only for me, but for her as well.
The now with her was a great, but a complete nightmare as well. Everything and everyone was against us, us versus the world and I didn’t care. Unfortunately, she did and again I was blind.
Days groping in the dark turned to months and years and again I was starting to accept that the light was gone.
Originally posted 2017-01-09 20:11:30.